My Love for My Weakness

"I didn't say it will be easy. I said it will be worth it."

H: 165 cm
SW: ~64 kg
GW: ~56 kg

"Life is too short to blend in."
My ultimate goal isn’t to weigh 56kg, it is to run a 10k with 45 minutes.

My ultimate goal isn’t to weigh 56kg, it is to run a 10k with 45 minutes.

aaaaand that’s why I will never eat at McDonald’s.

aaaaand that’s why I will never eat at McDonald’s.

You are what you eat!

Every 35 days, your skin replaces itself and your body makes new cells from the food you eat. What you eat literally becomes you.

You have the choice in what you’re made of.

I am not a vegan myself, but there are so many ignorant people who truly believe that the only place to get “real protein” is from meat.

I am not a vegan myself, but there are so many ignorant people who truly believe that the only place to get “real protein” is from meat.

The myth that women shouldn’t lift heavy is only perpetuated by women who fear hard work and men who fear strong women.

—unknown

In the future I am not going to do much food porn here, but my my my my my… I sure could lick that.

In the future I am not going to do much food porn here, but my my my my my… I sure could lick that.

A realistic goal.

It would be extremely great to achieve a goal of 57 something kg, but to stay on the more positive side and not set myself up for disappointment I am setting myself some other goals that have nothing to do with weight.

So my two ultimate goals will be to run a 10k without stopping (until now I’ve reached up to 4, since I just get too bored while running) and to run a 10k with +/- 45 minutes - obviously first I need to manage to actually tun the 10k and then we’ll see.

A friend of mine asked what I would like to look like when I’ve reached my “goal”… I told her I don’t have a certain picture, since I don’t want to disappoint myself, but I bet she can run a 10k with 45 minutes:

My new everyday routine (hopefully more than just once a day). Each exercise takes 30 seconds with 10 sec rest between each. All together 16 sets (as in for “set-up on chair”, “lunge”, “push-up and rotation” and “side plank” I do for each side) - takes just 10 MINUTES!

My new everyday routine (hopefully more than just once a day). Each exercise takes 30 seconds with 10 sec rest between each. All together 16 sets (as in for “set-up on chair”, “lunge”, “push-up and rotation” and “side plank” I do for each side) - takes just 10 MINUTES!

The scale.

Is it weird that I don’t really want to weigh myself? I know I have up there my starting weight, but I just base that on the knowledge that when I am eating pretty average (not pigging out too often), doing moderate activity I am about 63-64 kg.

The last time I stepped on a scale was I guess about 1,5 years ago and not really wanting to get on it again until I actually feel that something has changed.

Yes, that kinda means that I am still around the 63 kg, because any less I would already feel and see it more and at the moment - not so much. Now I am getting the courage to make a “before” photo and posting it here online for everyone to see. I will also share the link with my friends in the real world who see me on a daily basis, so they actually would know I am trying to get myself fit and therefor maybe keep my motivation up… since probably a lot of them don’t think I can do it, would be nice to prove them all wrong.

My future.

I’ve told this to myself that in the future I want to be a personal trainer and a nutritionist, also some sort of sports therapy. This dream has been on my mind for a very long time. About couple of years ago when I was struggling with an eating disorder and first started this tumblr I got the idea, that why not want something more from my life.

So I started to read more about nutrition and training and soon after I got my life back on track, no, I am still not fully recovered (well body wise yes, but my mind still likes to play some tricks on me), but back then I worked really hard to get my body in shape which I did… but life made a lot of changes and also my goals back then changed.

Even tho I am not sure where educational wise I will get my degree in all that, but it’s definitely in my plans as long as I can keep my head straight and my goals set.

But I’ve been at this point oh so many times already, yet every time the motivation is just so high… god damn you alcohol!